12-26-23

09:53

…..Committing to 10 tickets today, and then I’m calling it.

Have to snap out of this somehow.  What can I do… forget the negativisms.  All of them.  Don’t speak their language.

Kids get picked up, and my mood sinks further.

Distract myself with something.  What….  Focus on the tickets, this new story with the MSP.  More than likely by myself tonight, I think.  We’ll see.

10:37

Playing with tickets, just closed one.  About to have another espresso.

Notes this morning, not many sentences.  The Nurse messaging me and of course my mood is immediately repaired.  I’m a deadman without her.  She disagrees, saying how resilient I am, calling me strong and amazing.  I don’t argue with her but I disagree she isn’t aware of her hold and influence on me, that’s all.

When have I EVER written about another human like this?  You know the answer as I do.  I’m grateful and humbled, and this new year is entirely about us, our story, our travels.

Slow at work, in the MSP sea.  Keep doing touch and go’s on tix.  Did quite a bit yesterday on the vvv wine blog.  Have a Merlot to taste tonight with the Nurse, with our spread of leftovers.  May go to Oliver’s and get something small, a salad maybe.