knowing now, FREED
riding around the half-block loop twenty times, counting each lap to me. His only priority right now, his world, his only sight and sense. Envying everything in his life right now from this porch, sitting in this cheap plastic chair.
You should see him. Relaxed, composed, sure. He stops, comes in for or a break.
Thinking about this word in new view.
Pause before poetry, prose.
Everyday.
meeting with team in the field. Will be visiting businesses. Trying new prospecting approaches. Meet people, KNOW the people. Learn something about them. My aim for day is PEOPLE, not prospects.
Sales meeting in just over an hour. Finished lunch here at Redwood Café. A little behind on sending out proposed numbers and rates, but can catch up after bringing Jackie to his bookfair. Can’t wait, to tell you the truth… see his face when he sees me and see him looking for his book and shark tooth, and any other books that his liking strike.
Will finish written idea for tonight’s class later, at one of my writing spots. Know which one, but just not writing it here. New approach… maybe write more vaguely, I think to myself. Should I have not specified where I am, now, in Cotati, down the Road from SSU? Seems like another life, when I was there. A student. Want that back. That feeling, anyway. Why do I need to want it back…. Why not just take it, enact it, track it. Done. But travel light, no heavy obnoxious backpack.
Need coffee. And yes, need. Maybe an iced coffee like the other day. No, coffee from office. Get there early… bring laptop. No… just little notebook and phones. Day evened and righted itself much quicker than I thought it would. The Architect’s office…. Have to write that.
Running. All I’m letting self think about, meditate in and over, and be. Stony Point Starbucks and of course my music won’t work. No wifi, or maybe it’s my phone. But, again… running. Yesterday did my old route from Sonic for the first time in I’d say over a month. The distance anyway, haven’t done THAT in a month or more. 8.12 miles, averaging 8.32/mile. Just ten seconds under my best average of 8.22 for an 8-miler at lunch. Will register for another race. Which one, and how long. Kind of want to do a 10k, or some random 8 or 10-mile project. I’ll look in a minute, but this morning getting into my car a young man was running, approaching me on the other side of Mountain Hawk Way. I opened the door to car and got in, watched him run down the hill. I thought to self, “HILLS”. Hit them, and hard today. Running will solve everything, all of this that I’m currently in (which I’m not writing about, only RUNNING), everything in business, teaching, writing surely, and even wine and my projects associated with that.
Yesterday having lunch with JC, owner of KIN and the Publican Bar/Pub just down the street in Windsor, and KINsmoke in Healdsburg. He told me his story, how he came to own several business, and what it all stemmed from was going out and doing, obtaining… no self-doubt or questioning. None of that. Then I thought about me as an AE, and running, and walking in the Berkeley streets and how I have to do that more. This morning, and yesterday’s 8.12 and today’s hill project, is the start of something. Yesterday toward the middle of my project, around mile 4 I’d guess, nearly sure, I thought of a tech company. Of my own. Starting with running, and focusing on all forms of health and wellness, happiness… living the life that you decide. The quote from Emerson, about nothing being achieved sans enthusiasm. I’m seeing that the enthusiasm can be compromised, hurt, stalled or paralyzed. Not today. Today is going to see something from me.
‘nother project… 100,000 words in 50 days. This will be the only such aim. And no obloquy, anywhere. Only elevating and healing tells and riles, purposes and decisions. This entry not part of the book, or series of books, but it’s coming. And none of it posted to blog. 2000 words a day without any flicker of failure.
Caffeine starting to work, I think. No music, which is troubling. May go to Sonic as I’d planned, since I know the wifi works there. And, it makes me think of my own company… all wellness, happiness, self-love and talk, education, everything that’s health.
Then, after the Sonic office, RUN. Launch from Mountain Hawk, go right down hill, or start by going left and up, then go down that one street then up another hill. Not sure how many miles I can accrue… may run to Montecito from Calistoga, then run up Fountaingrove. But that’s too much uphill, and far too consistent and extreme extremity of incline. I’ll figure it out.
8:41… more people in this Starbucks spot. Not much in the mood for Sonic, suddenly. Going o force self to go there. Start a new blog, but don’t buy url. First post, running. Why run. And why people that say they hate running should try it. Running is only fractional consideration of what running is, or does. It’s freedom, it’s breath, it’s sight and an angular accentuation of strength.
Started the site, or the startings of the site, ‘#alliwannadoisrun’. Will absolutely have to run more, do more races (which I couldn’t find by the way, or none before April… all good), less wine and get up earlier like the young man I saw this morning running down the hill, wiggling his arms as he began the equator of his decline. Not just running, and not just wellness… but assembly of SELF. Discipline, happiness, LIFE.
YOUR life – YOUR choice …
New conversation.
New composition.
Each day, a design for that day, and each day its own type of design. The design can be applied to certain interactions and occurrences…
When you design a day, you have designed something in your story, for that day and others.