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Stopping for a second to think.  About everything.  EVERYTHING.  Going into the new year and in general.

Closed AE laptop, just for a second.  When was the last time I went to Starbucks?  I think the other day, Saturday right?  Changing for this new year, for real this time.

My hiemal mood, exasperated.  In a good, beneficial way.

Waiting to hear on this goddamn house.  Sorry, profanity permitted.

EOD run today.  It’s happening.

“I have often regretted my speech but never my silence.” Quote I just found.  Interesting.  Silence.  No communication, often the most convincing communication, maybe.

Going to St. Francis winery at 11 for a pickup…. Meeting at 1-something.  Fasting till noon.  Hungry now and would love something, waffles or those little pancakes for the kids, or… 

Message, but I don’t respond.  What do I do, what do I write, what project do I touch.  Messaged Engineer, no response.

Another message.  Will not allow self to so quickly and swiftly respond.  Where is my AGENT???  Did they like my offer or not?

Waiting waiting and ore fucking WAITING.  Could write a book or start a blog and business on that alone.  Oh my god, I HATE IT. Probably shouldn’t be advertising my weakness like that, especially with certain matters and their state.  But some people already know that about me, so whatever…

There, now I’m cussing and using ellipsis.  I’m a mess this morning.  Just told Ditter I hate everyone this morning and he says “except for meeee lol”. I laugh and am distracted from my growl concerning the house.

Waiting.  Why would anyone like it.  ANYONE.  Should probably respond to one of the messages that just came in.  

Only 4 words.  Yes I’m nitpicking.

Sipping coffee and somehow just barely latching to fast.

Going batty, losing it… wrote a quick poem.  Humans annoying me.  This is me, my truth and honesty.

Receipts.  God I hate them so much.  Is someone messaging me on the AE laptop?