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You have to write more today.
The last few days’ count is UNACCEPTABLE.
to San Mateo.
Story building, as is self-knowledge and demonstrative decisions.
Detaching from nihilistic claws that have without permit attached.
Always antagonize more crEATive.
Early in office. I can tell people, some, don’t want to be here on their Saturday. Thought walking down the dark hall to get coffee that I wouldn’t, couldn’t, have it another way. Coffee and blueberry bagel, I picked up from spot just down block. Thought they were CLOSING closing, for good. Guess not, after asking the girl behind large glass display case that no, no they are not closing. At one time they were thinking of moving, but no closing. Shared my relief with her and left after paying with quarters. Only $1.50. No debit card usage today, and no cash. Investing in my businesses more vigorously and with more tell and precision, closer to 40 I step. The morning, complimented by music in right ear, beats and instrumentals I’d have playing in my wine shop, or tasting room. Still think about it, literally on basis that’s multiple-daily. This morning when I woke up I thought of having to spend the night at my store like the one guy I met years ago when working for the advertising firm in Marin where I was invited into a guy’s office at a Mexican restaurant and the man had a bed behind his desk, to the side of his file cabinet. I always remembered that and think of it now, getting closer to 40 yes but even more near to my business. I know wine will answer everything for me. She always does.
8:01. 59 minutes at my desk. Noting on day, on what I need do for and with team today, then tomorrow. Tasting with a winemaker I’ve always admired and followed, and a bit a friend of mine, Michael Browne. My tasting with him was over 4 years ago, when he still partially owned Kosta Browne. Part of me wants to plan my questions, write them out. And I might to a degree. But if I’m to write as the wine writer I wish be seen and remembered, I’d prefer the preponderance of it be unplanned. Wine shouldn’t be an excess of structure. I remember myself saying once. Just now writing on a post-it, that wine is more chance than anything else, a reminder to not forget about the moment immediately before you.
Notes in other places, on wine and what I want from wine…. Wine from last night, nothing too crazy, and the vineyard walk I committed self to, tomorrow. As soon as I’m on Lancaster’s set, I’ll be in those rows. Must be, continuously. The rocks and soil contrast from one parcel of the property to next. Being away from the industry as I have, and very much by choice, the vineyards more me call now. I hear the birds from one close of Cabernet to the other, then the Merlot and Cab Franc behind it. Each lot telling me something about what I’m doing and why. That’s what wine is, why I’m in it so fiercely. Wine is this morning, these things I demand do and what I’ve done from the bagel to the hallway walk, the office and the drive to Berkeley. Wine calls for more of me, more of my writings, all of them. Each day and sight, thought and track I listen to. To control and contain pace, put the paragraphs in the order the time, MY time and MY sitting, call for.
breakfast, starting their Sunday with admirable intention and discussion.
Jack makes himself a checklist, writes a story on legal sheets.
Keep forgetting I’m at a winery, today. What does that mean?
Made self a list, after reading Jack’s.
wounds and tears are characters’ Where.
The location and point of soul, of music, of life, of CHARACTER.
time. No time to waste and no time to wait. All minutes are instructional, all times in your story narrate something to you, teach, they demand your direction and response. Gems compile right in front of you. Eyes should be ever present nets. Catch everything.
Notes, studies…. more story.
There’s always a story.
Always something to study.