Not to

Write about waking at just after 3 from wind.

Driving in mostly dark to El Dorado Hills.

Sipping latte, will need nap later.

May not go into work tomorrow.

New diet starts today–

No dairy, no carbs, no alcohol, no sweets. The latte I’m sipping, the only clemency. Any latte, forgiven. Moderate meat consumption.

2017 all over again. Couldn’t believe that wind. I feel bad joking about it, that it wouldn’t come, that the news was embellishing. Can’t beat myself up. Heard Soda Rock Winery is gone…. Want to move.

Behind in my NaNo

project. Have to write tonight…. Begging the story, my story, to make me write tonight.

Soon leaving for Corte Madera. Opportunity for new business and speaking Sonic, and have people be aware of me and my words.

Latte at home, fans still going drying out the ceiling from upstairs leak. Surprised how that happened, a bother, but teaching me more into homes and real estate, how homes are built and properties and their value… someone’s home, the beaming gravity of such.

I’m not too old for new interests and pursuits, no?

More awake, with this most recent cup.  Focusing on bay of contacts, the “funnel” as some would say.  The agency itself.  Will be out in field tomorrow, and the intent is only to say hello.  That’s it.  So, no pressure, no angst, nothing in that spat.

Writing plan for Agency, listing all industries associated and targeted.  And, how to sell Sonic or speak Sonic for purposes of alliance and alignment.

4:28pm.  Have EOD email cued.  Much more awake now, much more.  Ready for class and the week that approaches.  Desk cleaned, tremendously.  Thinking about tonight’s class, and how to approach.  One idea, the students and encouraging them to know each other better, to take notes on each other, get contact info, what be….

Sent wife a ‘Love u’ text.  Just cause I felt like it, aiming to be some kind of a respectable husband, I don’t know.  I’m not bad, actually I think I’m pretty a-bit-above-average.  Always looking to improve.  In everything.

No appointments set today, except for IT guy in Novato.  Will get appointments tomorrow, I’m sure.  Day 1 of Month 3, not unsuccessful, but not what I wanted.  Writer in a tech company, still learning.  That’s known though, already, right?  I’m learning, and will be in that “curve” for a while I’d imagine.

4:33.  I could leave now, but will stay till the 5-time.  Just to be in my place, my quarter of idea generation.  OH, follow up on re-terms tomorrow.  All of them.  Or wait.. not sure.  No, touch all of them.  Brief communication, no long emails and NO calls.

Started a document where I’m writing out the whole being and breathing of the POZ Agency.  Not going to re-write it here, but  there’s something taking shape as direction connection and not so extended extension of this AE angle.

And beyond that, what is there to write.  I’m writing, typing to somewhat have time pass but hoping something else surfaces, in my addiction to production.  Not just productivity.  I use that “tag”, but not ‘cause I want to.  Just in hopes more will see it than if I didn’t have it attached.  That’s about the extent of the pragmatism.

Want a glass of wine, something red.  Or white.  No idea.  Something, though.  Write lecture at writing spot, on Mendo.  Start with students, end with them.  With their ideas, their observations in Road, and what they did today.  Where are you, what are you doing… that whole approach.

Making sure everything connects, through movement.  Not so much direct and immediately visible identity, but with the unsaid presence.  Just scribbled that in new set of little pages.  Have to keep moving, stay in the chair and continue with my composition, my read of this desk, this office.  How I read clients and prospective clients, my production.  Proving to self that I’m moving.  Wrote that down as well.

New connection, in leads group, showed me how he writes letters to prospective clients, narrates his story, what he does and can do for them.  Just remembered that, the picture he sent me of each missive in a stamped envelope, ready to go out the same day.

Me, ready to leave office for campus.  Much more awake, and seeing more intersect.