Kerouac down for his nap, and I’m tempted to take one myself… Class in a little under four hours, nearly all grading done. Admirable progress today, I guess. I mean, I’ve shocked myself a bit with it, if you should know. Quiet in here, peace.. think I will rest my eyes for a bit. And when I’m back up, ready for class, this semester that has so far proven to be arguably the most rewarding since my first classroom in ’06, at Chabot.
10:25PM. Readying for bed. Couldn’t just sit here, watch the news. Another lighted session with ‘100’ group. And now, back to that bloody tasting room. It’s fine, I make it work for me. No days off. Have to plan everything. Going to charge this device overnight.. write lesson while in Room, go to class, come home and enjoy one of the Lancasters that was delivered to the winery the other day. Need to get to the Road, break this curse of regularity that’s lasted far too long.
6/19: In classroom, 5:26p, students’ll be arriving momentarily. Today was painful, not motivated to pour a single one-once hint of wine, nor did I want to give any tours, information.. nothing. There was a mood there with me, one sharp, dark, and it’s still somewhat about my character but this mocha’s assisting in its removal. Tonight I’m most certainly opening wine, some kind, more than likely Lancaster as I said in the last entry. More poetry, more poetry… Have to think in rhyme, and finish editing the book. This semester’s taking all the surplus time I thought I had. But it’s fine.. I’m teaching, writing, having incredible discussions on Gatsby, and I’m sure the books we address from here forward will be equally electric with reaction. Could use a beer right now.. Sophie and I shared the same thought, driving around the estate, around 2 this afternoon.
9:07PM, back home, exhausted, not wanting to go back to the winery tomorrow, sipping this Lancaster SB, 2013. Finally a moment to Self. But not many.. so tired of this cramped schedule. If you removed “the industry”, I’d have more time to write than I’d probably know what to do with. But that’s how it always goes. The mood from the winery today still crawls around my thoughts, motions, and unseen makeup. I’m a wreck I feel, but that means I’m more of a writer, right?
First longer reaction paper assigned. Will post to the teaching blog tonight– Have to check on the pizza, in oven, and get another sip of this SB…
10:18.. now to that Cuvée they do, the Sophia’s. Running tomorrow, hopefully, right after work. Ah… this is the type of wine I see mySelf sipping while on the Road, in a hotel. My focus, straying, but I stay typing, just again reiterating my intention for the Road.. with my fiction, the stories I see all around me, but I’m not in many places.. only two, now: the tasting room and the classroom.. two rooms that dominate my swoon. Not letting mySelf go much beyond this line, but I still thinking of what I’d write if I were in that hotel room. I’ll be there soon. What if tomorrow’s the day, the day I have that singularly and definitively rearranging day, the one that changes everything, the one for which I’ve been hoping since 2011, the days at ‘the box’? We’ll see, all I can to Self say.. we’ll see…