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11:51, at the loft in office for a minute. Heard, back, and another meeting on Thursday morning.
Tired from 6.3 miles with Nurse this morning. Not much mood or desire to write, if I can be honest. Coffee with Nurse this morning, on the Peet’s patio after run. Haven’t communicated with her in a couple hours and I already miss her words.
Then I realize, this mood and attitude are a choice. The latte and all its shots scream opportunity. That it’s always here. My ambition climbs, and I have that stubborn feeling, like I will NOT be stopped in anything I do. And if you’re interested in trying to stop me – Let’s have a conversation.
The drive over 12 into Napa County, relaxing me. Not letting my thoughts stray too much, or self-doubt in any regard. I’m setting it on page that IT will happen, so it will.
That simple. Again, there is nothing that will stop this writer from seeing a classroom at Stanford or Harvard, Yale, UCLA…. Wherever I want to go.
Write it to reality. Notes to self yesterday while driving from here to Vacaville, talking to self and snapping self out of the temptation to doubt or be negative.
Not today, serpent. I remember saying aloud to myself and putting the inward dialogue in the note, spoken into phone, texting myself as I sometimes do. The drive yesterday demanded it, especially after the relaxing and beautiful time I had with the Nurse in Bodega.
Her and I finding a new spot to which we’ll escape regularly I’m sure.
12:03…. Not enough time to touch everything I need, chip away at certain projects but that’s the way it goes today I guess. The next story—
Again, feeling not so much in the mood to write. I need something to occur, some event. And of course the argument could be thrown at me “Well make something happen!”
True…. Hold on, have an idea…..