3-25-24
06:39. Up. Starting with emails and LinkedIN, funnel spreadsheet I put together. This week I stop this search. Will never allow it to again materialize.
One email sent, then some reading in Daily Stoic. Amor Fati, yes. Precisely my attitude and way this morning, FINALLY getting up earlier than usual. Work, immediately. After waking from a weird dream, first set of steps on the mind.
Changing search parameters again. See where this takes me. Solely sales emphasis.
Notice my energy low this morning. Bring it up. Turn off reactive qualities…. Sales, software, Saas… where I’m exploring now. Similar to what I did at Kastle, and Sonic to a lesser layer.
Calm…. Selling ME, as my brand and shape, story. Every day is day one, and the point is to remain strong. Back into it—
07:19…. Some considerable ground covered. Putting myself in the role now, before even a conversation has started. Rewriting and wiring my mentality. Noting everything in this search. I want to be sad or at least missing it when it’s done.
This is the project like I noted yesterday. The new book and Beat. I’m doing it, I’m DOING IT.
Nurse’s daughter Kellie just now gets home from work. Also a Nurse, but with much different hours than her mother.
Ten messages in the next hour, this writer’s goal.
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11:25 back at the loft. Continuing prospecting, seeing it as a rich terrain. First punctuation, attitude, and how it translates to habits. I could be sullen and low, furrowed, desperate. But I’m not.
I won’t allow it. Keep thinking of the kids, the Nurse, what I want to build. What sort of brand or ‘software’ I am. Somewhat of a tickling and flirtatious idea broached on the drive over.
Monday – promising a multicolored Composition, urging only forward. Elevation. Visualization, positive yes but assured and vibrant. Not slowing, can’t afford it. Logging each contact in a new CRM I just created…. Rather, added to Funnel project.
Rather enjoying this, this challenge and new story. Into it… report later.
11:51 vowing to post and write every finding, idea, curiosity, possibility. Seriously, EVERYTHING. Prop Tech being the focus and desired landing but not limiting Self to that. Sent one message, then a couple more. Touching contacts I haven’t in some time or maybe never have.
Tentative call set for next week, as he needs to close out month strong. I totally understand, I told him. How I’m seeing this situation, as not a situation but new sales story, role, narrative.
Education, learning. Sales, teaching Self new notes again, writing SALES in large letters on a piece of printing paper. Nurse comes down to put a candle on desk next to me, telling me to let her know if I want her to make me a sandwich. How did I find this level of kindness and love, selflessness? Noting on paper… be that with prospects. More what I can do for them than any glimpse of antithesis.
Urge – HONESTY.