Back to prospecting, like Emma did with the houses. Look for candy, ha ha…. Coffee at the new Starbucks after lunch with referral partner. Perfect temp after letting it sit.
Working tonight, hopefully. Get ahead of the week. Wake early tomorrow, get in a workout before leads meeting. Muscles only, in room while watching news. Run tomorrow, in morning. WAKE EARLIER GODDAMNIT, like them and have the workout done before light even thinks about being light.
Promises self a poem today, but haven’t gotten around to it. Don’t think I’m managing time as best I could. Heading to calendar, going hour by hour for tomorrow….
Calendar full for tomorrow. And I mean FULL.
Talked Self into prospecting. Of course centering on law firms in Berkeley, but not excited about it. That’s not where the candy is. Advertising and Marketing agencies, media companies… publishing, hospitality… that’s what I need, want, need.
Wrote eight lines of a verse. Trying to start new poetry practice, do readings, write different prose.. do this entire writing life differently. Feel fraudulent “teaching” these JC students, but it’s just this last semester then FREE.
Have to use restroom but can’t let self up. Go on LinkedIn, I tell myself. Start more conversations.. put more images and words out there… anything. Thought I was going to have to go back to house and take a nap. DON’T YOU DARE, I said to SELF. Melissa teaches all day, no rest no pause no stop. I need to like light and ignite, days continuous.
Not letting a single nay-saying dart rattle my posture or prose, and definitely not my poetry. Onward.. charging into exploration of new business to this current beat. Emancipator still the current list and set.
Ugh…. More back and forth with a prospect. This is good, this is education, experience this writing AE needs. Another coffee sip. Now what. Look up, shop nearly empty. Thinking again about going home, finishing day there. Sound good, I say to myself, and I hate when people say that reflexively, to every goddamn thing be it a statement or question or just saying something random. “Sounds good… sounds good… sounds good sounds good …. SOUNDS. GOOD….” Ugh. So annoying. And in sales you hear it all the time. I catch myself saying it then immediately after in head I’m like “Shut the fuck up. Sound good?”