Then it clicks in my head, like a loving angry basilica bell….

Do you job less.

Be organized, but just call and talk to people.

Stop focusing on the reality that you haven’t signed anything yet this month.

Who cares.

Just keep calling, saying hi, seeing how they’re doing.

Stop stressing, stop fixating, stop self-deprecating.

I keep forgetting times are what they are.  Not using that as an excuse for everything, just need to remember the context.

Didn’t get a latte on the way back from taking Jackie to camp.  One victory on day.

Counting minutes till noon, when I run.  One hour or five miles.  Thinking I might ease back into it with an eased 5.

Something’s going to happen with today, as I’m assuring self so.