start an adjunct log, for other adjuncts– start a real movement, maybe I’ll then get “picked up”. Yeah? Or just detail my details of my barely detailed day. Right now, I’m in the cell, the shared office they let us adjuncts use. How generous. And yes, I wonder what it’s like to have one of those rooms, those offices to myself. But I’ll just keep thinking. Had to take a break from a stack of papers ’cause the writing hurt me so horribly– ears eyes mind and stomach. But I can’t blame the students for the ill-prescriptions of high school. And I won’t let this cage, this cell, this shared office I’m in drive me any madder. We adjuncts forage, but only from letting them, letting them do this to us, and letting US do this to us. What if I said ‘no more’, that I would only write about the adjunct life, that I don’t want to do it anymore and that I want to write about it to be a voice for us, the ones who aren’t complacent and distant and self-anointed in our cozy little corners, decorated to expose our biases and agendas and be a selfish advertisement; and so many of them are like that– when you’re full-time you sigh, you exhale and you lay down, relax, and if students don’t like your ways and methods and ideas (if they offer any innovative ones, anymore in their career, or even teach, speak with sincerity and connection), then who cares. You’re full-time. And if you’re tenured, then fuck the world! What can it do? You could light the quad on fire and they can barely engage you in discussion or ask why you did it. I have too much shape and color for such a fluff cloud. I’ll stay an adjunct FOR the adjuncts. For my students. And if I’m ever full-time, then I’ll still work for them; offer to be voice for them, for us, even if I’m one, technically, of THEM.