7-1-24

In office.  Training.  Lots to get through today.  Now calm, confident… in love.

First break in training this morning.  Nearly done with latte… lots to do today.  All of it will be done.  Thinking no lunch break, just hit what I need to.

Have to use restroom but putting off.  Up this morning at 05:15, making coffee in Vacaville home then on Road. Needed more, and will probably need more.

Writing in BED journal, behind, and only have self to blame.

To be back at 09:20… :11 right now.

Not enough time in the day, what I’m feeling, but maybe I have just enough.  Couple admin points to hit before EOD.  Distracted and trying like a mad addict to stay set in this post.

Today is about refusal – Refusing certain energies and my own negative self-talk.  No more.  I am DOMINATING, I told the Nurse in a text a couple minutes ago.  Only now, in this sentence, do I actually believe it.  Feel it.

Making myself take a break at 13:00.  Redwood Café more than likely, armed with nothing more than the journal.

Note sent to Nurse… trying to distract myself more.  Why not sure.  Write your way, to IT.