Not writing much yesterday, and now getting to keys today, the first day back after long weekend. Not sure where to start other than even though I was directly bitten by the wine bug on Sunday with the Italian wines tasting, I’m back in business mode here in my newly told tech steps. Thinking about what a real business this is compared to and not compared to, just autonomously, the wine industry. Everything from training and the creative, to the guy educating me on everything that’s in the office and the operations of the business urging I make this my own, that I can make it my own, that such is encouraged. In many respects, I can’t believe I’m here. But I am. And I don’t focus on nostalgia or overthought. I’m present and knowing what my focus here will be. Storytelling. Educating, speaking, writing, as L—the guy doing the training modules for me—said he did, does, writing everything down. Taking lots of notes.. precisely his language. And I’ve known that about myself ever since ever, but arriving here and starting my training and learning more about the company has punctuated my already known identity. Frankly, I don’t see a lot of me changing, just improving. This office hired me for me, who I am, who I’ve always been. I see so much, now, in my story, in the Mike Madigan the wine industry questioned and made myself question.
Brought lunch today, a microwavable breakfast bowl… which I guess makes this brunch. Some people around me playing games, others talking, and me in disbelief and total belief of where I am, what I now do, then only able to believe it. That this IS the reality. 45 minutes to write, collect myself in this pages set, this blog, this room, this table where I do touch-and-go’s on a bland breakfast bowl. Should have put some sauce on it, in it, something. So now I just go over in my head what I have to do for class tonight and— WAIT. No class. Today’s some teacher in-service day, or some activities day I of course can’t attend as I’m here, in the office new, where I put all storytelling strides toward. And I see more story… someone in the wine industry for as long as I was leaving entirely and finally getting to enjoy wine for wine and not part of some industry, now in tech not being excessively tech-lifted but making it his own. Using his strengths as a lecturer in Literature as well, a fondness of words and rhetoric, his own composition for this new job he years ago never would have thought he’d have. I’ve taught myself about self, my self, the person writing this at lunch, working at lunch on his story, knowing where he’s going… this is more than an exciting time for me and my writing, my narrative, but a sped and animated transcendence from patterned circuitry to a more mobile manuscript. True thought and understanding of placement and thought arrangement and assembly.
I’m a literary wine bloke in tech. Huh…. I have to write that. I will. I AM writing that, sitting here in this break room, with this bowl of eggs and minced sausage bits, petite potato squares, or rectangles.