In office with one other person. Tour earlier, first thing in day… 10 people from Florida. All of them antagonizing my love of wine, again. But, no changing what’s in motion currently. The new chapter for me with this new assignment. New stories, characters, places and placement.
Thinking of short fiction directions, but not sure about any of them. I know as a writer I haven’t the time for any more stalling. So I note on Kelly, her first days in the wine industry, her observations…. Someone either just left or came into the office. Both, actually. Bored, feeling now. How to liven the day… take the rest of the day? Off? Write some more in Healdsburg? Seems to be the consistency with me, lately. Fiction… fictionalizing…. Stories from Kelly and going from San Francisco to wine country, not knowing much about wine other than she enjoys it, knows a couple varietals, regions. That’s what she works with— OR, do I go non-fiction. Use ME, Mike Madigan in tasting rooms over 12-year stretch, seeing more of an industry and a side to human dynamics and dimension, principally, that I EVER thought I’d experience. Was more than seeing. It was living, learning, and being showed what is and isn’t for me. OR….. do I incorporate that into Kelly’s character progression and development. A writer, in crosshairs, at a certain crossroad, crossroads…. Contemplative intersection. Just DO. Stop thinking… goddamnit… how many times….
Little over 18 minutes left in “lunch”, which of course I forgot to bring, and now chew gum to make self forget about eating, having some sandwich from down-the-street deli. I think about how I spoke the wines to the Floridians, and how kind and attentive they were, how enjoyable. No contests, no challenges or inadvertent heckles, just conversation. Humanness. What wine should be but the industry strips wine of that, insistently.
This cubicle, giving me anxiety. Luckily, I can leave. Go back to the tasting room and … And, what? What will I do? Maybe I should go to H-burg, write at.. where? The Bear? Oakville? Duke’s? Or, what is it, Flying Goat? Coffee spot. Not much a fan of their coffee but do take to the decor and atmosphere of the café itself. Want to be in Hemingway mode, writing on a street. Writing, not typing. I’ll type later. Wake up early and chip away at book, either Kelly’s or mine. May need to get to know her better, my character, Ms. Kelly with her art and studio littered and arranged with her own illustrations. Or.. just start with me. Not a tell-all as some do, but something like that I guess, a book that highlights wine’s industry’s flaws and appeals, illusions and delusions, charm and character, and toxic repetitions. But then I think, do I want to devote a whole manuscript to them? No. And it wouldn’t be FOR them. It’d be for me. To be further free. To be closer to people like the Floridians than the execs and upper-management boils in their limp, moldy, vomitous ivory towers.