today’s walk was about more than staying consistent with that consistency.  It was more intended to keep me as far away from this morning’s strange mood lull as possible.  I will do everything myself, I realize, and hope for no ‘breaks’, depend on no one for an “in”, or some kind of connection.  Everything will be done on my own.  I will write my story, create my reality, sing all my songs, those I myself write.  And finally soon fucking TRAVEL.  The day’s mine in a way it wasn’t this morning.  And I have to work quicker.  There’s no room for any nay.  I can only allow yelling yay.