today’s walk was about more than staying consistent with that consistency. It was more intended to keep me as far away from this morning’s strange mood lull as possible. I will do everything myself, I realize, and hope for no ‘breaks’, depend on no one for an “in”, or some kind of connection. Everything will be done on my own. I will write my story, create my reality, sing all my songs, those I myself write. And finally soon fucking TRAVEL. The day’s mine in a way it wasn’t this morning. And I have to work quicker. There’s no room for any nay. I can only allow yelling yay.