Vacaville, solo.

Nurse on a MUCH-deserved trip with two other Nurses.  Girls trip.  Me here with the cat, Portobello, and watching a football game and with some charcuterie, SB, quiet.  Missing her, but texting frequently.

Beers with Oz and D-K earlier, talking telecom and the company, inner-workings and prospecting approaches.  I’m more fiery and passionate I’ll even say about this new AE story.

Olay, but I have to calm down… my brand, that’s what it comes down to.  No egotism, but humility and genuine, heartfelt conversation.  Stories, learning about businesses and the people operating them, what they sacrificed, how they arrived there.

First time home alone without my girl, here in VV.  Hard to describe the feeling, to be honest.  Somewhat excited I have this time to write but missing her to a point of strange pain.

Promised her I’d be strong and productive and I will be.  Tomorrow is chore day – chemicals in pool, vacuum upstairs, outside cushions in the garage.

19:09

Off a quick call with the Nurse.  TV muted and listening to Coltrane.  Meditative.  Grateful…. can’t get away from that word and thoughts of the Nurse and I traveling.  Poured some red, an AV Cab.  Roth.  The days when I helped manage that property, seeming like another life past.  How.

Where am I …. The mind doing acrobatic moves forward and backward.  Wine talking to me, telling me to come back to the industry like someone today recommended I do, with my passion as they spoke in louder speech.

So then I look at the glass before I take one sip.  Roth… all the memories there, the cave and that room where I’d do tastings, educational pours and flights, after a drive around the property.

And here I am, in telecom and tech.  No regrets but reflection.  This stay at the Nurse’s house while she’s out of town and me thinking of her story, how she accrued the stripes and credentials she did.

She’s more than amazing or impressive or admirable or any human word.  I don’t try to describe her anymore.  Just react.  Look at me.  I’m actually happy.  FINALLY.

So… the time passes and I know I have to sleep without here here tonight.  Ugh… see how that goes.