Going to start calling in a minute.. I swear. Advertising and marketing offices in SF. Go for bigger accounts, I tell myself. Learned my lesson from the small business visits, and even one account I landed but was a complete bother …. Or maybe it was my attitude. Certainly my fault for not qualifying better, I get it. I’m in the Enterprise Dept and that carries something, something I guess I need to know better.
9:07am. Yes, getting a little anxious. Just get on the phone and call as many people as you can. Have one business queued… a marketing firm in SF. A little hungry though, already. Should I eat, go back home and work? Yeah, we all know how that’ll turn out. I’m thinking hit the co-working space. This is what goes through the head of someone in sales and who writes, and when a national state of emergency is declared. But is that an excuse? Is this an entry or an essay?– I’m a fucking mess.
Miss the students, believe it or not. One of my students reading last week about her first car.. Can remember what she named it, but she named it, and told this story about every detail, and how she heated it but eventually missed the car—the smiley face hanging from the rearview smelling like old people she said. And the color. Want to hear them read more… want to hear myself read more. My students are quite immediately and directly ordering me to finish shit. Stop thinking, and just write. Just get on the phone and call these people, these businesses. That’s all I can do, right?
9:53. Call in just over a half-hour. Cold in the nook, here. Getting hungry again. The coffee I made at home suppressed hunger but not for long. Now I’m genuinely uncomfortably cold. More anxious..