Today, a day off one could say or see, but me wanting to further push into the AE story… starting with getting up earlier, the god hour of 4am, every day. Abraham telling me yesterday that he wakes all seven day at 4-something and works out. Last night, me staying up late, posting some story but mostly relaxing after a long day, or not so much a long one but one of production in many arenas and atmospheres. Today’s aims, only production… a run at some point after Jack’s baseball tryouts which are in three hours. Think I’ll launch after that… or, run on treadmill. Yes, the latter for speedwork intentions. Feel stuck in these types and not sure why. I’m thinking excessively. No more writing aims, find that’s a curse. When you put it there, it’s there to look you back in the face and taunt you, somewhat agitate you that you haven’t done it till now. Only option is to plainly do, just do what you need do.
Will hit that study/course guide for the certification, for connectivity and telecom work. Not that I want to be a Sales Engineer, but I want to get as close as I can. Associating it with winemaking, oddly. How I know enough to make win, e but not enough to be a professional winemaker. Some won’t get this analogy or association. A sensible note or corollary to me nonetheless. Maybe I do want to be a Sales Engineer, but without the title. An AE that’s more SE than AE. Thinking…..
Need to get a run in at some point. I’m anxious, not having woke when I wanted, not racking 8 or nine miles like I have a couple mornings in the past. Production, the word dominating the semester for me at the JC, and here I am grappling with it. A new blog project, ‘a productivity practice’, revolving in my thoughts driving back from San Rafael yesterday, methods of intensifying and amplifying, diversifying production and principle productivity. One, don’t let anxiety envelop you. If you can’t do something RIGHT NOW, because you have family to-do’s or some other appointment, push to side in your head knowing it’ll be later appeased. Second, bed early wake early. More and more I’m thinking this is the most obvious realization of production. IF I’d shot from the sheets at 4, I’d have a sizeable run in by now as well as a thousand or so words. And that’s my third point, no shoulds or woulds… only dids, or doing.
Studying production this morning in my own thinking and with my own narration…. Oh, another staple ideology is to travel light. Always. No heavy bag or collection of something under your arm. Be FREE, and free of things. Free of clutter and ancillary anything. Production so often is impeded by what we collect, and in my study there should be less of the study itself and more of a directedness of the productive pulse. Knowing all of this, in expanding and heightening production, your work accrual, is autodidact.