Today, one of a blazed pace. Meeting with mortgage man, Kevin, and all went well, more than well, in fact there were no negatives to be heard anywhere in his dissection of our financials or possibilities or to-do’s. The house is much closer than I ever thought it would or could be. Then to errands, Costco and one other. Then a somewhat celebratory lunch with Alice and I. And now home, 2:03. Maybe leaving something, or a couple turns out, but no matter. The meeting with Kevin made me think of my career as a writer and what I want to do and my son and everything. So I solidify. I’ll be reading those 10 pages of the novel tonight, editing only when I absolutely have to, then print the next ten. It frightens me that I’m dependent on wine’s industry for stability, for consistency in employment, that’s worthy to the bank, in its theoretical and intangible and obscurely collective mind. I’m further consolidating everything so the move will be smooth and my career ever further forward. Looking at yesterday’s pictures of the Matanzas Creek vineyard and knowing I can have my own business and some sovereign self-sustaining entity in the wine world, business, something, I just don’t know what ‘exactly’. But I know I’m getting close. One of the stops I left out was a shoe/boot repair shop on Mendocino Avenue. Alice dropped off a pair, of boots, there the other day. We went into this musty, old, obviously never-remodeled long narrow space and heard a man working on something to a talk radio station, and the machine, whatever it was, in operation. Alice prompted the man to tend to us, gently, and he came to the counter. After finding her boots, I asked him if he were the owner. “Yes,” he said. Then I thought, “Another owning their own business, having their own avocational nook.” Me, soon, I realize again, looking at the photos of these vineyard rows, the sun just stepping to stage, the autumnal set and constituents, and me there, only for observation. I’m close, I tell myself, I’m close– starting over where I initially started with the first blog: wine, reacting, Literary approach to wine. Responding to the images and letting them control and grab and garnish my writing as they feel I should. This is a lecture directed at me, my typing, my pen. I’m ‘owning it’, as that fool GM at the wine marketing firm said for us to do with out call lists. Ugh, I could never be that again, in that office or any one like it, never, no way.. oh this last day off… Can’t believe I’m going back to the tasting room tomorrow, but it’ll be beneficial to me and the pages more importantly. And after work, dinner at Mom and Dads, for Denise’s, my aunt’s, birthday (which was really a couple days ago I think). I’ll be able to ask Katie a couple of questions, for material, and leave it at that, just that, a couple questions– 3 tops. And I’ll bring one of my Lancasters, or one of the Washington wines I received as a gift a while back.. what do you think?