Realize that sometimes we wish. Why wish? We have everything we need right here. When I wish I had new material, or something new off which to spring for writing, or some blog post, or something creative… I now realize, ‘WHY?’ I have everything I need. Right here. In what I do at the winery, in wine’s world with my business, at the JC. Everything’s right here. And this could be the coffee talking, but I need get even more reactive and radical in my creativity. The coffee is very much onboard with this mentality, this morning. Life is too short to over-measure or strew, wish for something that’s not currently a fixture in and of you. Should have gone for a run this morning but I didn’t so I’m refusing to sulk or feel shamed… I’m going to embrace where I am on this floor, my own thoughts and reality explored and re-explored.
Woman yesterday coming into the winery after running 8 miles, she said, somewhat boast but not as I could tell she was drained from her intervals around Lake Sonoma. ME this morning, well, I could get out there, right? I’m wishing I had two hours to run but I don’t… no, just keep writing. Run tomorrow. OR, use the weights off to the left there, but the fireplace. No wishing.. use what you have.
Have to email students this morning, or I should. That will take time, so no.. ‘no’, what? I don’t know. I’m just keeping myself moving on the keyboard here with the day in sight. Possibilities revolving around me like giggling sprites. An otherworldly cheering section. “I appreciate that,” I say. Tireless writer, writing father, a morning of meditation before a stretched day at work. Let’s see what happens, and what happens will me more, more material I could and can and will use. Don’t wish, just pull from existing inventory.