Again reminding Self of the goal of this project, to write with every free second I have, and it makes me realize how my free time, my free seconds and nanoseconds have diminished since Emma’s birth. And of course no blame and no spite toward my wee beat priestess, just something I’m realizing. Finished heating dinner for Alice and I, she upstairs laying with little Kerouac till his sleep overtakes his eyelids, and me waiting for her to descend down the stairs. Free seconds… and no word goal, but just to sit and collect, write a bit. And obviously ‘Project A’ will extend into 2017.. wow, ‘2017’. So futuristic-sounding. Not sure what I’m saying now, envisioning my travels with wine, and my future wine shop/wine bar.. but I need money for that. Goddamn money.. always the issue, with everything, and I — stop. I’ll have it.. no stress. Not tonight. Not with my daughter in the next room. Only Zen. Wined Zen. I’ll open a gorilla red tomorrow night, more than likely a Lancaster, see such being poured in my wine shop/bar, doing tastings.. need to study every inch of the business, and I have been closely for the last three or four years, really since working at Lancaster after the box let me go, and thank the Craft they did.. wow, that was 1/20-something, 2012, nearly 4 years ago. And I remember, that was right before Kerouac was born, getting laid off, and I was not in a good place; mentally, financially, Literarily, nothing. And now, I must say, the writer’s much stronger. This ADJUNCT warrior professor is ready for every-and-any-thing.
My wine shop/bar has a focus. The consumer. But what wine type? I guess Bordeauxs, right? Think Alice fell asleep upstairs. Good for her. She needs time with Kerouac and some rest, some quiet time after being on ‘Ms. Austen duty’ all day.
Could use another sip of the beer I opened… so a break for this typer, penning pugilist. Need to find some new words tonight.. everything I’m writing right now I hate, but the goal is to just keep writing, stay in the chair as I tell the students.. all4blog— narrative— expository quake—