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08:57 and the date is aloft.  In the nook.  Next move, measuring.  How to …. Not saying too much here.

Prospecting new ideas and approaches and only I know for what.  Staying with it… can’t afford switches and changes of mind.  One laptop, then another.  Appointment at 11:00, in Santa Rosa.

Send old industry friend a message.

Panic about me a bit, but I won’t give into it.

Write a plan for day.  Working I think till… who knows.

Send another message, another industry contact.

Rewriting SELF.  Stay in this chair.  Latte from Noto done, may need another espresso.  Pull me through this self-doubting sludge and trudge.  Just keep having conversations…. Another, then another, then another.

Pinot last night quieting nerves, singing, clouds and visions, new streets and travel, seats and no hassle.  Imagine that.  Happiness.  Passion… 

Asked the Nurse what about Nurse feeds her passion.  Her answer had me locked – PEOPLE.  The community.  Doing something meaningful and navigating situations and scenes, problem solving.

A few days away from the keys on this laptop, except for Friday me venting about that shitty day.  Letting it go…. Focus on the vineyard, those walks, seeing the rocks by the roof, valley floor.