Progress. Story. Self-leadership. Noting everything. And I mean really doing it.
Have meeting with speakers, later. Gathering thoughts, thinking about what I can say no matter what topic I’m assigned to address.
With this team I manage, or supervise, I manage and supervise my own actions in a deluge of ways. Seeing everything before it transpires and when it does analyzing and deconstructing each attribute of the action.
Today writing everything down. Fasting. If the laptop doesn’t work it doesn’t matter. Starting over with what tech I use for writing. Cruising through what I have to today do, with no obstruction or interference. Needing coffee in hopes the hunger goes away. Progress. More than progress, but visible travel. Today, I travel. Don’t need to travel to travel. Ideas, from thought to thought and notion to notion.
Ignoring hunger. Bathroom then coffee—
11:08. With coffee. Will sip in a bit. Too hot now. I’m certain a burn will result, if I sip now. All these papers on desk. Makes me look busy. But I’m in cruise control right now, flying but more a glide through tasks, through sentences and the bridge to get me There.
Took a couple notes and now I re-focus. Or try. Getting close to something, I can feel. Going to stay in office a bit longer, tonight. So…. What do I do for lunch. Stop thinking about food. Think about words, I tell myself. Finishing a book finally and travel, teaching more. More proximity to other writers and writing books in other cities, in only three or two weeks’ time.
3:12. Done with everything. Looking around desk, finding project for self. If I see something, it becomes a project. Or I move it. Office survival.
4:03. Wrapping up this day, preparing for next one. On tonight’s run, study form, study thoughts while running—why I run, why I continue to run, think about how much more time I have running as I do. Notice the office starting to calm down a bit. Notes for meeting first thing in morrow. It’s not a matter of staying busy, but seeing what I else I can see in the projects I can self-assign, self-mollify.
Have to walk iPad all the way across the floor to safe in computer room. What do I do between clock-out and Kerouac’s basketball practice…. Get books for next semester, maybe. Go somewhere and write more, fiddle with laptop. That goddamn laptop…
4:49. Practice, my son’s, isn’t for another 2 hours. Should I go run now? Sure the gym will be crowded as a cow heard packed in a small barn. Am I making up excuses? Have to lead self one way or another. If I don’t run, then I write. Inclined to run. Last semester on Wednesdays I’d be in class, then go get dinner then see Jackie shoot his hoops. Run, Mike. Run. Find a tread, and speed. Work in and from and for more flight.