Don’t want to go back to dreams– well that’s a falsehood, I abundantly do.  But I know if I do go back to the closed eye I’ll resent myself and wait till tomorrow night (or really, tonight) and have the conversation with me that I need to wake early tomorrow morning, right?  The same circle.  That I’m sick of, intensely I’ll with dream and wish and taking self everything I want– the wishlisting I’m known for.  Going to close eyes for a bit, and hope I wake when I want, just minutes forward.  And if not, there’s a morrow, and another after that.

Hot down here, some reason– close eyes, sleep, wish I could make coffee, but that’d wake them all–