5-5-25

16:43

About to post EOD.  Haven’t felt the best, think I have some bug.  Not letting it slow me.  The power nap I took earlier was more than enough.  Meeting tomorrow at 15:00…. Still writing notes, not overthinking, forcing self to ONLY see positive result.

Slow at work, and that’s how I wanted it honestly with how I feel – throat, some sniffling, and just feeling foggy.  But, honestly, that nap helped/

Giving SELF 15 minutes of writing time here in journal, listening to this wind which has been constant and forceful, fucking loud, since last night.  Gorgeous day otherwise, driving though Carneros looking at the hills and vineyard rows that bend and curve and traverse.

Committed to waking early tomorrow to go over notes and write.  Not workout or run, but write.  Beginning of a short story I wrote the other day about a character wanting to get out of sales.  What is there, but demand and more demand, the ‘what have you done for me lately’ walls, conference tables.

Not for me… not anymore.  Building stories and content from anything.  Seriously, anything.  The snack I’m having here in Vacaville, driving to Nugget and getting there and not wanting the visit to end with how much I love that store.  Reason obvious, it makes me think of the Nurse.

Don’t overthink with writing, I tell myself as I did my students.  Actually, don’t think at all.  Just start typing and see where it goes.  Sunriver and the deck of the lodge, having a glass of whatever Pinot they had on their menu that time and looking at Mt. Bachelor, saying to myself “One day this will be where I spend most of my time, write several books and blogs, and anything I want…” And that thing is no longer here to stop me.