Manifesting isn’t magic.  It’s habit and belief in your Now.  In office, questioning everything and the questions provide answers, then answers to the questions and answers.

Calm, I tell myself.  Turning off music.  Listening to own voice.  What I need, only I can tell self, that is if I know.  I know what I don’t want.  That’s where you need to start.

Deconstruction, the theory I picked up and became addicted to in college.  Especially as a grad student.  Thinking I wanted to be an English Professor.  Then finding the wine industry, then tech and telecom and here I am.  Looking again…

So what.  Some will brag about their singularity, how “lucrative” their “career” has been.  Don’t hear it.  Only see and feel where I am in this room with a call in 28min.  

This is all a bridge, or part of one.  No reason or need to stress for worry or be so reactive.  Meditating, reading through some Marcus pages – inviting what already is, wishing for nothing.  Despair never.  Everything is where it should be.

Meditating on this page, thoughts of the Nurse and our weekend.  Sip…. This meeting could be huge.  Or it could be nothing.  No way for me to know.

Whatever materializes I should be grateful for it finding me.  Whatever it is.