2-21-25

Jack shows me a math problem, asks if I can help.  I had to be honest and tell him I have no clue what I’m looking at.  Weird feeling.  Resentment at self for not knowing, and wishing I majored in something else.

07:41 kids ready for school, me needing to get something in today in terms of sales.  Casing a two-part proposal an SSP for the first time, calling in one of the vets to help with it.  First task when back.  Not sure why I’m stressing about it, but I am.  Need to learn this new system more.  Tasting SELF with that… study today, master the program so you can spitfire quotes and formalized proposals like nothing you’ve ever done well.

Mind is full of to-do’s and the day ahead of me, but gratitude hovers over all types and thoughtful steps.  There is no Plan B, I repeat to myself as the Nurse said the other night over a cocktail at Brass Tap, one of our most frequented haunts in VV.

Dominant attitude, one thankful and humbled by where I am.  Grateful for all of it, no matter how stinging or pushback-y.