Why do I focus on my age so much?  There’s no way that can be healthy.  Certainly no mood benefit.  Now that I’m at a crossroads of sorts, or maybe just crossing road, me crossing a road hoping the other parcel is more promising–  I know some drastic, meteoric change has to propel from my story.  “Break the pattern, break the pattern,” you hear people say.  But that’s the language of a single person.  Of someone without kids.