Why do I focus on my age so much? There’s no way that can be healthy. Certainly no mood benefit. Now that I’m at a crossroads of sorts, or maybe just crossing road, me crossing a road hoping the other parcel is more promising– I know some drastic, meteoric change has to propel from my story. “Break the pattern, break the pattern,” you hear people say. But that’s the language of a single person. Of someone without kids.