5-28-24
Day 1.
Rohnert Park, CA.
Smooth day. At lunch now, what I packed this morning around 05:55.
Been communicating with Nurse since on the commute. My project for her/us continues, not moving from that effort. Will message her in a bit…
I woke this morning feeling free and clean, quick, calm… nothing off. Just bright with ambition and knowledge that what I want to form, will.
My eagerness and hunger start to get the best of me. That whole ‘I want it yesterday’ feeling and mentality. Calm self down, it’s only Day 1 I remind myself.
Call with prospect already, lead I forwarded a few days ago. Listened on the call, nothing big ticket but still something to keep client happy. Which is ALWAYS the aim. Hungry to a point of dizziness and concentration lack, so I snack on these crackers while typing. Really should stop and just have lunch, then return to keys.
Fasting always sharpens me, but right now I am flat and slow-moving.. Text Nurse. Can’t get on wifi. Text goes out slow. Cold in break room. When back at desk, more set up of accounts and devices, interfaces and whatever else.
Hard to believe I’m here. Thought at one point that fucking time off would never end. I woke this morning so quick and sped to get out the door and on the Road, I’ve never seen myself like that.
Hard for me to type here. I’m all over the place. First day scatter, brain. That’s what I report here, and know that’s it.
Nurse texts back, me starting to feel a little tired but I’m pushing Self…. Like I NEVER have. I’m too full of knowledge that something is going to actualize if I stay in the new Beat. So that’s what I’ll do…
Missing the Nurse, will be back with her soon.
45 years, tomorrow. Me. That’s what I am. Not sure how I feel about it, but recent decisions are putting me in a never seen position of strength, and radicalized positivity.