4-10-25

Today…. New.  Feeling new.  Meeting cancelled but in office.  Starting a new conversation with a winery today.  Not thinking or overthinking.  Just making EVERYTHING become real.  Plan is to stay in office for a bit, then head to loft.

Traffic was lite this morning.  No real interpretation in the symbol but helped me get here quicker.  Going to sleep obsessed and waking excited, I kept repeating to myself on this morning’s commute.  That’s what I’m after, more than any dollar amount or title.

Writing in journal feverishly this morning, early, and toying with the line between fiction and non.  Why even have a line.  The story of me at 45 and nearing 46 and in this sales pit that I couldn’t care less about.  I hate saying that, but truth is the gem.

That is the fuel.  Today, trying to land appointments in the telecom life.  Even if I’m not into it, I’m acting.  My energy is high and I credit the coffee date with Nurse and latte ordered.  Stronger today than in past visits/dates.