1/1/17. So it’s here. And I’m here for a couple hours to gather self… Not an inch of planning, just doing. Hopper Starbucks for a couple hours and disbelief that it’s already 2017, but I have to get over that, and immediately. Woke with a bit of a stomach-honed uneasiness but that’s not at all a result from the wine or sparkling J Rosé I bought Alice, but eating too late. And that ice-cream sandwich nightcap. Yeah, won’t be having one of those for a while. First lesson from this first day of ’17, is to just do. Feel like in English classes they instill too much process and procedure when it comes to writing. In high school and even in the JC’s quirky and medicinal-looking rooms. Why not just hop into your idea, start writing and edit or polish or refine later? Why can’t writers, or any of us, just be allowed to DO? To write? To express and be ourselves as that’s what living is. That’s what Newness is and learning from Self— when you try new approaches and avenues, and you find yourself in a belle vie. The first day of a new year, after so many do so much planning, you’ll find me here in Hopper just writing, just flying at the page with a blind appetite and subscription to this writing life. To this creative life. Even with my center a bit a-quake, I sip slowly a medium roast. Left the sparkling water bought for me at home. She just called to remind me.
Rather large man sits across the room from me, making noises and laughing. I’m not being judgmental but I do need to concentrate. On my story as a teacher with this new year and how this WILL be the semester to end all semesters— Or rather, to START all the following semesters. Me, mobile, sharing my ideas and thoughts and approaches with students, and formulating new ones with them. Saw one of my strongest and more cherished students from Spring of ’16, yesterday at the Piner Café while in line to ring out with Jack (after he and I enjoyed a daddy-Jackie lunch). The man across from me makes more sounds but then focuses on a tablet he brought and is quiet, or quiet under all this Hutchinson I have playing. 2017… New Year, New Day, New Mike, New STORY— So I fly toward it like a fly on a freeway about to hit a glass flat, but I dodge and continue flying toward impediments, evading them or slaying them. Wine is music so it will be there with me in my story, in the 2017 stream…
Already see day one of Spring ’17— Theme: Freedom. In all the authors we’ll be covering. Hunter, Plath, Kerouac, Hughes. This will be the most constructive and magnetic semester of my career. For a number or reasons, but foremost how everything will extend from the “teaching”. Connected to this blog and to me and culminating in a book, sending me on travels where I’ll sip wine from some hotel room and write about the wine and the room and how I can’t wait to go back home to Alice and the little beats. One object for this year, as I scribbled in the Comp Book, was something like “MUSIC…more music”. Again, something like that. But Bobby now tells me to just play, jumpy around in your own notes and knots and consciousness hops. 2017 is about life in the creative and only living such. No playing roles, or “looking the part” as so many say— that’s always annoyed me. Why spend anymore time doing anything but actuating.
More people come into Starbucks, appearing beat, worn, over-sipped, tired from the night before. How could you do that to yourself? That would waste if not terminally infect any forward in this first ’17 page. Others aren’t like me, I know, or like my writing friends like the lady at work in the office who also teaches and understands this phylum of thought. We have to write, we have to be we, always. It’s definitely here. The year where everything has to happen. Freedom and exponential simplicity but I’m overthinking as usual, as a usually over-self-used writer. Write forward, write from this coffee and to the next one, and back home to the water you were supposed to have drank more of. 2017 orders me to continue as veridical as possible. No fiction, only truth. And I do plate any fiction, like with Kelly, then it has to be from a place of truth, a fold not in any way fictive. Truth solves everything, and truth coupled with creativity is impervious. I start to relax, on this first day, while Roy Hargrove and Ronnie Mathews play. The first day puts me in a place. One if not lucrative then assuredly, freeing.